Some people are scared of the unknown. Some people are scared of “different”. I have grown up and matured over the last eight years like you wouldn’t believe and this has been partly though understanding and identifying this.
We as humans can be like lemmings. This is the “norm” and it’s always been done like this. My father never did it so why should I. If we call carried on doing that we would still be living in caves. Think about it.
I have spent a lot of time reading and searching for what I believe to be some sort of answer to the meaning of life. Sounds a bit “far out” but we all do it. It’s basic animal instinct to find “your place”, somewhere “comfortable”.
I have found my meaning, or as I understand it at least. I am actually very happy being the person I am. Am. Not was. I went on “my journey” because something was amiss. Namely my place in my “society” and the relationships I had with those closest to me.
I have read texts on Judaism, Buddhism, Christianity and the source of a lot of my comfort and views on life which is Kabbalah.
I like to think of it like the Pick ‘n’ Mix.
I took, what I consider to be the good bits. Things, lessons, stories and rituals from all of them. Mostly Kabbalah though.
It works for me.
I’m sure not a lot of you know much about Kabbalah. Perhaps that Madonna is a follower. Some crazy sect. I sub religion of Judaism and not for you. I probably thought some of those things eight years ago when I picked up my first book in WH Smith.
I would invite you to read some of the Kabbalah books however I would stress that I do stick to the “Berg” family. Some of the books out there can be very confusing and too in depth. The Berg family seem to have the skill of “translating” the text into easy to understand English and lessons that in large make sense.
Take a look at the following links:
I Might be Wrong: Click Here
Happiness: Click Here
Personal Power: Click Here
Read it. Don’t read it. I read it and it changed my life.
There is a link to religion but don’t be put off by this. I am not religious but I took what I wanted out of Kabbalah and I still do. I don’t perhaps expect you to get it from these couple of links. I have read some nine books on the subject and some of them more then once or twice.
Most of you will think that it’s more of the same from me. I don’t think so. This is what I have based my life on for the last eight years. It it this journey that I have attempted to describe in one of my other blogs, Ere Kenty: Sensationalist. Perhaps based on some of the feedback I haven’t done this very well but I will look at it again.
Don’t get me wrong there are bits of Kabbalah that I don’t understand, parts I don’t agree with and some bits that I just find silly.
If you do read it, read it with an open mind. Don’t stop at the first silly bit you come to. Or the first mention for religion or god. Give it a go.
I am perhaps sending this out to offer some sort of explanation as to my thought process.
Yes I am random and bizarre and insane and a disaster waiting to happy and some of you so politely put it. I like that. I’m OK with that.
It beats mundane. Some people are scared of change or different.
I also owe a large part of what I want out of life to a fable, or story, that I will share with you later today or tomorrow.
I am not lazy or unwilling to work. I am certainly not going to give up on my Daughter like some of you have suggested.
Far from it.
Not that it’s any of your business but I plan on paying the bills and paying my way. But I want to be rich in other areas of my life.
Giving my Daughter time.
Giving my Daughter attention.
Allowing both myself and my Daughter the freedom to express ourselves and make ourselves happy.
To not spend so much time at work.
To not spending so much energy through worry and stress and politics.
To stop wishing my life away. “I just need to get through to the weekend” for 52 weeks a year.
Are you happy doing what you’re doing? Would you not change if their were another way?? Some people are scared of change and different. I am giving myself the opportunity of doing sokething else. Seeing if there is another way.
I don’t think that’s mad!! I think doing things that make us so unhappy for most of our lives if bloody insane!!
Have a look. I am happy to speak to people although I am no authority on it.
Despite what some of you think about me I am actually very approachable and gert nice.